No more.

EDIT: No more whining from me. period.

Im going to leave this up as a testament to how moody and emo i can get at times. But Ive found inspiration, and Im not gonna let this drag me down. not anymore. this time I think positively.

I swear to god, it feels like my brain is melting sometimes. Rife with ramblings, prose and thoughts of how I out to be, or how I want to be keep driving me insane. As of late, it seems as though Im going through some rather abrupt changes in my psyche.
One thing is for sure, it feels like im trying to catch up to the world. Im trying to grow up basically. I want to take more responsibility for myself, get a GREAT job (good just isnt good enough) and live the big dream, yet here I stand alone in Green f***ing Acres with a whole lotta NOTHIN to my name.

The more I think about it, the more I realize just how in a pinch I am: I work for meager pay at unreasonable hours, can barely fund myself for life, let alone college courses that im more than willing to take, and I let it all happen to me. My dreams mean nothing, because I have to take care of others. It sucks, it fucking sucks. Basically, here's what I WANT  to do with my life:

Get a car
Go to School
Graduate with honors

but INSTEAD, here's what im doing:

Work work work work drink work work work sleep work work work drink work work work.

....I need help.

Dreams of Tomorrow

I have dreams...dreams of worlds far beyond our reach. Dreams of ascending into the upper echeleon of superior intellect. Dreams of our kind finally realising and conquering all our faults, downfalls, hatreds, fears and shortcomings. I dream of one day embracing all that makes humanity good, shedding all that is evil, and casting aside that which makes us weak;

Then, only then can we truly go far away from this pale blue dot.

Are my dreams too ambitious? maybe. Are my thoughts too half-baked? depends on who you ask. Is my head in the clouds too often? sure, but I like it up here, and you should come join me sometime.

My dreams tell me that humanity, while so obsessed with and absorbed by that which we fear, will one day wake up, stand tall, and not cower at our future, but embrace it.

"to boldy go where no man has gone before..."

What the shit?!?! Teen denied diploma

Hello ladies and gentlemen, its time for another edition of What the shit, i am your blog host drakken22, lets cut right to the chase.

Chances are, if you havent heard this story on the news, you've either been more focused on iran and/or north korea, or you've just been living under a rock these past 2 weeks. Either way, ive been brewing this one for a little bit. Ive been letting this one sit in the stock pot to cook to optimal pissed offness.

Okay, you read that? good, cause im not gonna spell out the details; they're already wide in the open.

I just have a few thoughts about this matter: First off, I feel absolutely terrible for this guy. all he did was blow a kiss to his mom for christ's sake. You mean to tell me that THAT is grounds for refusal of diploma? Oh, and dont get me started on the kids who almost got arrested for assault with...get this...A BEACH BALL.

'Why do you feel you deserve your diploma?' He goes, 'Because I worked hard and I earned it,' and she goes, 'No go take your seat,'" Mary Denney said.

""When she got up there and started speaking, they threw out a couple more balls and she turned around and said, 'More people may not be graduating today if this continues.'"

Okay lady....Ive got words for you. Big, fat, nasty, vulgar, decrepit, slimy ass words for your rotten ass.
WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE? Bitch, you had better be glad that kid had taken a bow, because if it were ME up there, and you said that to me, i would have straight up bitchslapped your ass.

I dont know who went and made you queen of the bitter fuckcunts, but you are without a doubt one of the saltiest assholes i have ever heard of.  The fact that you feel like you can ruin this kid's day, go home and smile about it makes me want to take away something of yours. You need to get that 11 foot pole taken out of your ass, you fucking hoilier-than-thou BITCH.

I fucking hope your carcass gets ripped to shreds in the eternal fires of hell, you evil bitch.

Thats all for this week, tune in next time as i once again get baffled by all the bullshit in our backyard.



As I stand on the precipuce of time, I look out onto the world; that which I was born into. To weigh the good to be found throughout the valleys, plains and coastlines is moot to the discrepancies of our mortal selves. Yes, we have the potential to be great; to be caring, wise, loving, and to not think of ourselves; simply put, we hold the key to the betterment of mankind. But we are blinded by greed, lust, possesions and power, when truth be told there is no power on this earth to match that found in the cosmos.

We have so much to learn, and so little time it seems...when the walls come crashing down, the fire ravages the land, leaving scorched remains in its wake, what are we to do but unite? it seems that only in times of tragedy we are compelled to band together; but are not times of peace compelling times as well? what have we to fear from each other?

As the world gets smaller and smaller, and people grow closer and embrace that which makes us unique, the rats in the shadows begin to grow even more restless, never tiring in their campaign of evil, cruel intentions....

We as a people must toss aside any remaining doubts or skeptisms of one another if we are to be one.

One. One people, One Planet, One goal....

Aim for the Cosmos, and spread out into eternity.

-Brian M.

I'm wasting away...

(Note: this is a departure from the various reviews and funny little stories i usually write about, and I'm going to be a bit more serious than usual. so, sorry, no funny in this post.)

What did i do wrong? i feel like im just wasting away sitting here at this computer when life is happening all around me.
did i not study enough in school? did i not excel in sports like i should have? is my add really that bad that i can't even settle on a career?

All around me, it seems like the world is crumbling down, and i'm stuck in the middle of ground zero.  I try hard enough, right?
Its that ima fat, lazy piece of shit that can't even hold a job for a fucking year.

everyday that i wake up, i feel like i am the biggest loser in the world. Cant talk to women the right way, cant save up money for a license, i cant even take care of i really that bad?

I really need some fucking counseling....i just can't handle this anymore. either way i look at it, im losing out in the world.
i just want to be successful and love what i do for work, but how can i do that when i dont even know what i love to do anymore?

WTS?! with Massey: Everyone's a critic...

Evening Ladies and Gentlemen...

I am currently not in the best of moods, and there is a deserved reason (at least i think so, and thats all that fucking matters).
Why? well, how do you feel whenever someone steps into your conversation and tells you that said subject sucks?
This was the case earlier this evening.
Me and Michael were discussing his bonfire this sunday, and what we could do on monday if given enough time.
I suggested that we go see X-Men origins: Wolverine. as you know, I dig superhero flicks and Wolverine is a bad-ass mofo.
(Not to mention, gambit and deadpool are in the movie. FUCK. YES.).

Well, anyways, Cody comes over and starts saying that his friend saw the movie, and that his friend is a big comic fan. Apparently said friend thought it sucked ass, which is fair enough seeing as that I still think Spider-Man 3 should be fucking BANNED from public viewing. Still, dude...What the fuck?! So what if your friend saw it and thinks it sucked? LET ME GO SEE THE FUCKING MOVIE BEFOREHAND. I mean, cody is a fucking awesome friend and all, but this just irked me the wrong way. Just because you say that it's bad, we're supposed to go "OH LAWDY BAWS, ILL NEVA GO SEE DAT MOVIE EVA.". FUCK. THAT.
Let me go see the god-damned thing beforehand at least, and then I will tell YOU what I thought about it.

I mean, shit....

Thats all for now, take care and stay away from Ms. piggy, she's on the rag it seems and everyone is catching her shit.

interesting week so far.

On sunday, i got to record the podcast with the guys. i had alot of fun doing that, just being with those guys and bullshitting about nothing. monday, we hung out, played some games, i got to cook, and went home. tuesday, i kinda chilled out. went to go clean the vents at work.
last night i hung out with michael, a friend from work. we had some beers, smoked ourselves silly and hung out around his barn and farmland.  wow, what a tranquil place. i absolutely love it up there. no cars, no neighbors, no noise. horses galloping way off into the horizon, chickens walking around, and a great view of the appalachians.

we got to jam. mike was on guitar, and i was on drums. I NEED TO GET A DRUM KIT. i can do some crazy shit on drums. its like im a natural.

What the Shit v 1.1

Hello, im Brian Massey, and you're not.

Today's subject: the MadWorld-Wii "controversy."
 i suggest you read this first:

now, is that not the most rediculous thing that you have ever heard? BECAUSE nintendo knows that they need to bring back hardcore gamers (which is a blessing to one of my earlier entries), this watchdog group known only as the NIMF (which i assume stands for needy ignorant midget federation) starts slamming nintendo, criticizing them for "Bringing violent video games to a once family-friendly platform." wow. okay, where do i begin with these fucks...

1. The wii is meant for EVERYONE. just because they put out a M-rated game (which im happier then a pig in shit about) doesnt mean that they are ready to abandon that so-called "family friendly platform." if nothing else, they stand by that, but realize that they need to throw people like ME a bone every once in awhile to keep me around. whether you like it or not, WE were here first, and they want to treat us to something actually worth playing. hardcore gamers arent gonna want to play wii fit or the same tired ass sports game over and over, we want blood, murder and decapitations. yes, we are sick fucks, but we like it that way.

here is an incomplete list of m rated games for the wii, and thus why this argument is fucking invalid:

Resident evil: umbrella chronicals.
Mortal Kombat armageddon
Tom Clancy's Splinter Cell Double Agent
Manhunt 2 (yes, THAT Manhunt 2.)
Escape from bug island (wtf?)
Driver: parallel lanes
Resident Evil 4
Call of Duty World at War
No More Heroes
Target Terror
CSI Hard Evidence (okay...wait what?)
The Godfather
Alone in the Dark
Brotherhood in Arms: Road to hill 30

3. Nintendo is not going to suffer from releasing a few m games.
the mere fact that a bunch of ambulance chasing parents are running for their bibles and citing wrongdoing on nintendo's behalf  for releasing a m rated game is laughable at best, and horrifying at worst. give me a fucking break. like it or not, we were the target audience, and im sure a few kids are gonna end up playing that game no matter what. still, YOU have the power to stop YOUR kids from playing what YOU percieve as inappropriate. DONT GET PISSED OFF AT NINTENDO FOR WANTING US, THE HARDCORE AUDIENCE, TO ACTUALLY HAVE A REASON TO PLAY THE WII AGAIN.

Im Brian Massey, what the shit.

Truer Words have never been spoken.

70 Years. It has been 70 Years since Chaplin stood before an audience and spoke for the first time.
He could have said anything he wanted to. Instead, he said what needed to be said.
70 years later, and every word rings true even to this day. not one word seems dated.  Its as if he speaks for
EVERYONE who has ever walked this earth, and those who have yet to do so.
This being oscar season, I thought I would post one of my favorite moments in cinema history.
I try to live by these words daily, and believe that mankind would be better off if they would listen to a tramp who got his
deserved moment in the spotlight.